I Felt a Bit Overwhelmed but God Called Me to It

Wow it’s been a busy week! I was blessed to speak to 2 very different generations on the same day this week. In the morning, I spoke to the Pinckneyville IL Church Women’s United Group. Pretty safe to say the average age of these mighty women of God was 70ish. Then I spent the evening speaking to the DuQuoin High School National Honor Societies Induction Ceremony on Service.

I confess, my nerves almost got the best of me. I have been a bit overwhelmed with duties, responsibilities and the burden of shining for Jesus in the midst of it all. I have been ready the last 2 weeks to seriously seek an exit in some of my leadership roles. I’ve already passed batons to some amazing people with great talents, but it seems like the next leg of runners are out of sight and I’m getting winded. Well, I’ve learned a lot in my 51 years and one of the best lessons has been that when your are struggling like that, you’re not relying on the author of your story to deliver. He’s called me deeper and He is there to grasp my hand and keep me from drowning. So, yesterday was a kind of a “pull up your big girl pants & straighten your crown” kinda day for me. Follow along with me…

Here’s how cool God is: I’ve been booked for nearly a year for the Church Women United. They are a study and philanthropic group made up of ladies from area churches. Months ago, they asked me to speak on NubAbility Athletics Foundation. The organization I co-founded with my son and serve as the volunteer director of. As I prayed and prepared my talk, God emphasized a few items he wanted me to tie in with my presentation on NubAbility. I am like “God, what could I possibly have to offer to teach these ladies of this great generation?” HA! I should have learned from all of those Bible characters to not question God’s call.

  1. I don’t have anything to offer, but He does. I’m just a willing vessel of delivery.
  2. Thank God I was at least willing to step out in faith and just “go”. I’m certain the big fish would have swallowed me up if I chose to go the ways of my fears and insecurities.
  3. He called me to encourage them to use their gifts for service. Never mind that I figured that they’ve been doing that for decades now.

When I arrived to the dining hall of the Methodist church the ladies were meeting in, I set up my a/v equipment and then took my seat. There, in front of me was the day’s program booklet. The theme for the month was being thankful for our differences and using our gifts for God’s glory. (NubAbility =differencesūüėú)

I had no idea. Neither did the lady that booked me nearly a year ago! God.

I began in connecting with the ladies by recognizing our similarities. We were all mothers or at the very least, have mothered someone. Then I explained how gifts I didn’t know I had, or I didn’t have the confidence to put into play emerged usually during times of struggle and diffulty or shined during past experiences of overwhelming responsibility in motherhood, careers, or relationships. Our gifts are honed during trials.

I explained that using my gifts for service in building and growing NubAbility came about because of my mothers heart.

I showed the ladies a video that was a celebration of all the things NubAbility’s #dontneed2 All Sport Summer Camp entails. ¬†I noticed several misty eyes after the viewing. Then I ¬†shared with them about this great global work. ¬†Each growing day in our organization has little to do with me. I am humbled and surprised at what blessings God places at bend along our journey. I simply am a willing vessel to serve, relinquishing the gifts he gave me to the service of others. I’ve never been happier, more complete or more fulfilled. The ladies enjoyed my presentation on using your gifts in service and on celebrating the differences that NubAbility serves. I left them with this scripture to ponder:

1 Peter 4:10 Each of you should use whatever gift you have received to serve others, as faithful stewards of God’s grace in its various forms. 

You are never too old to use your gifts and talents for good works…Neither are you too young…

As I returned home around noon, I began to organize my notes into a speech I was invited to deliver to the National Honor Society ¬†at our local high school. The topic was also on service! (C’mon on now, two generations, same day, same topic.HA, God your crazy!!) the predicament I found myself in, I had prepared for a 20 minute keynote and they firmly requested when I arrived, to deliver no more than 10 minutes of material. Heck, my video on NubAbility ¬†was 3 minutes long, PLUS I’ve never been able to deliver a message in 10 minutes!

What did I do? I gave it to the crazy God that put me in that situation. I whittled down my note cards on the fly and delivered a 1-2-3 punch. I told the students their story is still being written. They are the main character but they can choose to write chapters where others are highlighted. In writing a story of service to others by using the resources of their supporting characters, (parents, friends, teachers, etc), utilizing their gifts and talents, and choosing service to intentionally make a difference will make them game changers in a world that’s full of self absorption. I guess it was effective as well. I saw tears.

I don’t mean to make people cry. I know I also hear them laugh. But I do believe when the spirit is moved by the Holy Ghost, tears come.

This group of local smarty pants are a group of amazing young men and women. I have known many of them since birth. It was an honor and a blessing to encourage them in their story. 

To say I was a bit anxious at delivering both of those presentations in the same day is an understatement. I did only what I knew how to do, cast all my cares and anxieties on Christ Jesus. He delivered as usual. Friends we serve an awesome God! He’s cray cray, but in a supernatural amazingly awesome way.

I want to share this prayer with you written in TD Jakes Woman Though Art Loosed Bible. I highly recommend it for daily scripture reading if your a lady. It’s not a study Bible, but it does have all kinds of beautiful nuggets of scriptural insight, gems of encouragement and truths that are based on scripture. It’s work is intended to encourage us frazzled women to let God set us loose to bring in his harvest. I’m praying this daily as each day brings a new challenge in the position of leadership he has placed me in. We are all called to be leaders. Hope this blesses you too!


My heart is to lead with your heart Lord. Give me the love it takes to lead well. 

Be a blessing and straighten your crown!

May his unending mercies and peace be revealed to you,

XOXO

Jana Kaye Kuhnert

Author and speaker at RiseByLifting.com